Y M L X L - Kiss Kiss - キャッシュ
Got this very personal letter from Marc Peters about why he makes music:
My name is Marc and I am a beat maker and graphic designer from Richmond, Virginia. I have been through a lot these past couple of years and I hope my experiences will inspire others to stay positive, no matter the situation.
My story begins on December 18, 2009. It was the last day of fall finals at James Madison University in Harrisonburg, VA. All of my classmates and I were in the WRTC lab pushing to finish a coding final that was due that day. Although we were hard at work, I had one of the best times I ever had in college in that room, surrounded by friends I made over the past 3 years. I arrived home that evening, so grateful to be on winter break, sleep in my own bed and be home with my mother. I didn’t know tomorrow, December 19, 2009, would be the day that changed my life forever.
I woke up to a massive sinus infection that no amount of medication would cure. After the cold drifted away in the beginning of January, the sickness came back a couple weeks into spring semester around February, but this time I had lost the vision in my left eye. The week after, I experienced loss of balance and memory loss.
JMU health center doctors were not exactly sure what was wrong with me and thought I had an ear infection or some form of vertigo. Over the counter vertigo medications such as dramamine made the early stages of MS worse. I felt like I didn’t have my final semester of college with no recreation, parties or anything outside of my dorm. Most of my professors didn’t understand why I emailed that I was sick every other day. The only professor that really understood was my WTRC counselor and professor Lucy Bednar. She made my life so much easier trying to earn my degree.
There were so many issues I had during the last 3 months of school. After class started at 10 am, I would always come back to my dorm room, eat lunch at12 pm and then sleep from 2 - 9 pm. My roommate Arthur and I would go to the cafeteria at 10 pm during last call for food and then do my homework till 4 ameveryday. I lost a lot personality traits. It was hard to walk, speak and just feel normal. It felt like one day I woke up and I was a completely different person. I had to remember how to walk and talk again and hold conversations with people. I knew I had my work cut out but just couldn’t understand what was wrong with me. I just made the best of every day and did my best to relearn things while trying to earn my final course credits so I could graduate on time. I cherished my last days at JMU and made the best of what I had there.
I made it to graduation on May 8, 2010 and walked across the stage to receive my diploma. I was so happy that I graduated from a major university. When I came home to Richmond for the summer, I had weird chest pains and went to the local ER. Everything tested fine yet I still had no idea what was wrong with me. The ER referred me to the ear, nose and throat doctor and then the ENT referred me to the neurologist who referred me to get an MRI in September 2010.
That summer, the rise of Drake had a serious impact on my life. I’ve been a follower of his since 2007 when I heard “Replacement Girl" featuring Trey Songz from neighboring Petersburg, Virginia. In 2009, Drake came to fame with the "So Far Gone" mixtape. In 2010 with promo for his 1st album, "Thank Me Later," MTV did a documentary "Better Than Good Enough." Drake said he would quit music if Noah "40" Shebib died because of his MS. I used google to understand what MS stood for and found the term Multiple Sclerosis. I realized I had every beginning symptom for MS; blurry vision in one eye, vertigo, tiredness and so on. In October 2010 when my first neurologist, Dr. White, called me in for the diagnosis, I finally found out what was wrong with me.
From 2010 - 2014 I have been on the medication Rebif, which is a self injection I perform 3 times a week. The pain threshold gets better as the months pass. I’ve been denied partial social security 3 or 4 times in the past 3 years, so I live to create my own future through music and art. I’ve been making music since 2005 and blogging since 2008. From 2010 to 2012 I produced and designed my artwork for my instrumental mixtapes and created a website called “CHAMPION SINCE.” I always try to use my MS situation and turn that pain into a positive digital form. Y M L X L means Young Marc Levitation And Lean because my relapses always felt as if I was on a cloud and had no control. Relapse Remitting Multiple Sclerosis for me means I can lose the use of any limb for a period of a few seconds or permanently. Being positive and creative was my way of fighting through all the negativity.
I want to be a positive influence across the world. I am from the City of Richmond, went to college, learned to live life through MS while at the same time fighting to graduate JMU despite not even knowing what was wrong with me in the first place. I put my pain and everything I have into my music and designs and create what was once negative a positive.
I want to inspire people to understand that they too can make it through their tough situations as long as they remain positive and stay true to what they believe in. I hope my story can help those that need help themselves. Sometimes the inspiration you need is right in front of your face. Don’t give up. Your eyes will notice the signs when the timing is right.
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